You could say that i'm still struggling

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This is going to be a short little post, for anyone reading my blog because you can relate to what i have been suffering with, wanting to know what the signs were for me or for any other reason and your interested in knowing how i ended up finding out it was all in fact OCD.

 I've made it clear that my blog is to talk about my journey up to having, and living with OCD however I've not yet detailed how exactly it led to me finding out this is what i have and the hard times I've been through while i was searching for an answer to what i was going through.
I have drafted a very honest and detailed post that i have titled 'my journey on how it lead to me being diagnosed with OCD and i keep going to publish on here but i just cant bring myself to actually put it up. 
I can honestly say i am in such a better place than i was several months back, i'm happier, more confident and haven't had an intrusive thought for a few weeks now however I keep going back over it, re reading it and there are a few parts that make me feel uncomfortable to read. I guess that is maybe why i don't feel happy to post it just yet. 
I am desperate to share with you my journey so far but if i'm honest i think i am still struggling to come to terms with whats been happening, what I've been through and a small part of me still feels ever so guilty for the terrible intrusive thoughts i would have.

 I know that i should not feel guilt of any kind because the intrusive thoughts were not my own thoughts, they were not me and are not a reflection at all of the person i am - is what i keep reassuring myself of.

I want to say to you if you are going through the same as me that although it can be managed and you can feel like your old self again, its still an upsetting time to think back on. You've gone through or are currently going through, something that's so difficult and terrifying at times it will still be a little sore to think of. 
I will get around to putting up the post detailing my journey more in depth but for now i'm going to leave it and just post a few other things id like to talk about. 



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