Raising 2 little boys, where has the time gone!

Winter 2016 

I posted recently about my smallest boy turning 1 and i just can't believe it came round so quickly. It only feels like yesterday he was a teeny tiny newborn, while J was still only small too, not really understanding that he had a baby brother and his speech was slowly just coming along. 

Looking at them both now i have a bouncing little boy toddling around and an almost 5 year old school goer, where on earth an the time gone?!

When i found out that i was having a boy at my 18 week scan of my second pregnancy i wasn't too sure how i felt, i was mainly over the moon that my growing baby was well and happy in there, that's all that truly mattered to me. I can tell you i was not disappointed at all but at the same time i felt as though i just knew deep down that i was going to have a boy all along. I had a scan at around 15/16 weeks and i asked the sonographer if she could tell at all what we could possibly be having and she told me a girl! I told my mum that she could possibly be having a granddaughter and she couldn't contain her excitement, so much so that she went out and bought a ton of gorgeous little girl clothes. I wanted to get excited at the idea of having a girl but a tiny part of me was holding back because i just wasn't sure. I didn't buy anything anyway until i was around 20 something weeks because i was so anxious during the pregnancy that something may go wrong but at the same time i wanted to wait until i had it confirmed i was having a boy/girl.

Now i don't really know the myths when it comes to which sex are the "easier" babies, if i'm honest i don't think it really makes a difference. I've been ever so lucky with my boys both J and baby D settled perfectly into the routine i set them and they are both perfect sleepers through the night. Baby D is teething currently and he has had a couple of nights where he has woken up almost every hour during the night, me and his daddy are not used to being up during the night at all and so it wore us out, we could hardly function the next day! 

Any mamas out there who's babies do wake during the night, no matter what the age, i feel for you. How you soldier on every day after disrupted nights sleep i salute you because 1 or 2 nights disruption and i struggled to even get dressed or leave the house the next day ha!

J has always had tons of energy, he does not stop, he could do an entire day at school and then go to the play center and STILL have energy left to run laps around the house and play around with his daddy. Since baby D has learnt to crawl and climb J has absolutely loved having a little play mate. The chase each other playing tag and just watching them play together is so nice, it fills me with so much joy. I love that they have each other, whenever baby D is crying J will always comes to tell us that his brother wants his milk, or that he's crying. 

Sharing toys, now that is a whole new concept to J as he is certainly not used to sharing, and obviously baby D has no idea what sharing even is. I have to keep a close eye because anything that his baby brother has, J wants too, and he tends to just take it from him. So we are in the process of learning to share and i'm sure they will get there someday! 

Winter 2016

I can honestly say i love having two little boys, i would have loved to have had one of each sex but the fact that i have been blessed with carrying and giving birth to two healthy, beautiful baby boys is far more important to me than what sex they are. Knowing that they have each other makes me feel comforted and so happy for them both. I grew up not having any siblings and i always knew that if i was to have children i would want 2 or 3, so that when i'm no longer here some day i know that they have each other. 

Its not easy having 2 children but i'm forever learning and i try my absolute best to parent them both well. I love having children, being a mum is the best feeling and after everything I've been through i am so happy to be able to play with them again and feel comfortable and confident around them, i couldn't imagine a life without them!

Their bond is beautiful, i really hope they keep that and although i know they wont always agree or get along, they are brothers for life.