Where have i been over the past month
Hi all of you lovely people who visit my blog for one reason or another, I've kind of neglected my blog over the past month, for several reasons really.
The first mainly being down to our house being hit by an infection of some sort which meant my 2 boys and the OH were unwell for 3 weeks, 3 weeks!!! I missed some college to take care of the boys - J missed some school, baby D missed some nursery and the OH soldiered on into work regardless.
Then just when everything was slowly getting back to normal and back into routine i broke my toe last Sunday, 3 hospital trips and an x ray confirmed its definitely broken and of course not to mention the beautiful shade of green/purple that my foot has gone.
I feel proud to add that i have never ever, until now, broken a single bone in my body.
Prior to both of these things i was struggling to write a few posts that i wanted to on here along with also finding that i was having the odd 'bad' day.
I spent one night writing up a post and it made me feel uncomfortable, as much as i wanted to share everything, it was hard to read and go over again.
There was also a night i'd forgotten to take my tablet, it was quite late at night so i thought i could go to sleep and take it the next morning however i just couldn't sleep and ended up in hysterics crying to my OH.
I came over feeling extremely anxious with a few intrusive thoughts, fearing the very worse and feeling as though i was a terrible person. In the end it was only because i took my tablet and had no more tears to cry that i passed out flat asleep.
I have found throughout this entire illness that whenever i have a 'bad' day or even simply a 'bad' moment, speaking to someone always helps me. I usually call my doctor and have a quick over the phone conversation about what happened, how i felt and what to do going forward. I have a habit of asking if my medication dose needs upping, which it never does but i find it comforting in a way to know that if i need it to be put up then it can be.
On this particular occasion we both agreed that it was stress that had triggered my 'bad' moment and that i also shouldn't forget to take my tablet because i have come to rely on it.
I've also had other 'bad' moments but nothing that I've not been able to control and relax myself so that they've not escalated.
College has been a brilliant distraction, i'm enjoying it so much.
I have a day to day diary that i use to remind me of any special date/plans etc and i came across quite a few blank pages where i hadn't filled in that i had college. I remembered that when i was going through my really tough time just before starting the course, i filled in a few weeks worth of classes and didn't bother going any further because i felt for sure that i wouldn't last longer than a few weeks in. Well here i am several months in and so far i have passed 2 exams and handed in my first assessment.
I'm also really enjoying the time i spend with baby D, a massive change from how i felt a few months back, he can walk now and has his own personality forming which makes him so much fun to be around. I do the school run once a week to pick J up, we get the bus home which he absolutely loves! Its honestly like a trip out to him!
I've got another 2 assignments to start at college and with Christmas fast approaching i'm not sure how much time i will get to jump on a post but i'm going to try and get back to it because I've missed posting so much!
I hope you've had a great start to your week, please feel free to share my blog with anyone you feel would benefit having a read through my past posts.
Pop me a comment or message me privately, you are always welcome!
The first mainly being down to our house being hit by an infection of some sort which meant my 2 boys and the OH were unwell for 3 weeks, 3 weeks!!! I missed some college to take care of the boys - J missed some school, baby D missed some nursery and the OH soldiered on into work regardless.
Then just when everything was slowly getting back to normal and back into routine i broke my toe last Sunday, 3 hospital trips and an x ray confirmed its definitely broken and of course not to mention the beautiful shade of green/purple that my foot has gone.
I feel proud to add that i have never ever, until now, broken a single bone in my body.
Prior to both of these things i was struggling to write a few posts that i wanted to on here along with also finding that i was having the odd 'bad' day.
I spent one night writing up a post and it made me feel uncomfortable, as much as i wanted to share everything, it was hard to read and go over again.
There was also a night i'd forgotten to take my tablet, it was quite late at night so i thought i could go to sleep and take it the next morning however i just couldn't sleep and ended up in hysterics crying to my OH.
I came over feeling extremely anxious with a few intrusive thoughts, fearing the very worse and feeling as though i was a terrible person. In the end it was only because i took my tablet and had no more tears to cry that i passed out flat asleep.
I have found throughout this entire illness that whenever i have a 'bad' day or even simply a 'bad' moment, speaking to someone always helps me. I usually call my doctor and have a quick over the phone conversation about what happened, how i felt and what to do going forward. I have a habit of asking if my medication dose needs upping, which it never does but i find it comforting in a way to know that if i need it to be put up then it can be.
On this particular occasion we both agreed that it was stress that had triggered my 'bad' moment and that i also shouldn't forget to take my tablet because i have come to rely on it.
I've also had other 'bad' moments but nothing that I've not been able to control and relax myself so that they've not escalated.
College has been a brilliant distraction, i'm enjoying it so much.
I have a day to day diary that i use to remind me of any special date/plans etc and i came across quite a few blank pages where i hadn't filled in that i had college. I remembered that when i was going through my really tough time just before starting the course, i filled in a few weeks worth of classes and didn't bother going any further because i felt for sure that i wouldn't last longer than a few weeks in. Well here i am several months in and so far i have passed 2 exams and handed in my first assessment.
I'm also really enjoying the time i spend with baby D, a massive change from how i felt a few months back, he can walk now and has his own personality forming which makes him so much fun to be around. I do the school run once a week to pick J up, we get the bus home which he absolutely loves! Its honestly like a trip out to him!
I've got another 2 assignments to start at college and with Christmas fast approaching i'm not sure how much time i will get to jump on a post but i'm going to try and get back to it because I've missed posting so much!
I hope you've had a great start to your week, please feel free to share my blog with anyone you feel would benefit having a read through my past posts.
Pop me a comment or message me privately, you are always welcome!
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